I love new years because it means new beginnings.

I love new beginnings because it means starting afresh.

Happy new year everyone.

May 2010 be kind to all of you.

Love,

TGND

The only joy in celebrating Christmas

is because it's the birthday of our Saviour, Jesus Christ.

With Him, my life is now complete.

Happy Birthday Abba Father.

And to everyone else, a very Blessed Christmas.

Luke 1:26-38

In the sixth month, God sent the angel Gabriel to Nazareth, a town in Galilee, to a virgin pledged to be married to a man named Joseph, a descendant of David. The virgin's name was Mary. The angel went to her and said, "Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you."

Mary was greatly troubled at his words and wondered what kind of greeting this might be. But the angel said to her, "Do not be afraid, Mary, you have found favor with God. You will be with child and give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus. He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High. The Lord God will give him the throne of his father David, and he will reign over the house of Jacob forever; his kingdom will never end."

"How will this be," Mary asked the angel, "since I am a virgin?"

The angel answered, "The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the holy one to be born will be called the Son of God. Even Elizabeth your relative is going to have a child in her old age, and she who was said to be barren is in her sixth month. For nothing is impossible with God."

"I am the Lord's servant," Mary answered. "May it be to me as you have said." Then the angel left her.

TGND

I just love the cinematography of this video.

& everything else about it.

just leave me at either place for a week;

i'll probably be fine after that.

TGND

just the right song.

Why do I even still think about it?

It's been a while and there wasn't much to begin with,

or was there?

Time to forget, time to move on.

I feel silly for even harping on it.

have you ever felt paralyzed after seeing someone (from your past) you have not seen for the longest time? and this sudden chill of nerves and fear (all the same) takes over your body?

the whole emotion feels weird yet at the same time you feel a certain sense of gladness inside of you?

its hard to decipher. but if you've been thru it, it should be easy to understand.

sad yet glad,

TGND

Oh, take me back to the start...

Instead on focusing on the things that are making me unhappy, I shall focus on the things which I am fortunate enough to have and things which makes me smile.

Here's 5 things that made me smile today:

1) my little pooch trying to wake me up in the morning

2) the fact that i woke up alive & healthy

3) knowing that there is One above smiling down at me

4) walking past a shop full of childhood biscuits & sweets during lunch

5) receiving nice pink presents from a friend for the pooch

I shall do this often enough to block out the unhappiness and displeasures in my life.

TGND

And all the roads that lead you there are winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
but I don't know how

TGND

Two are better than one, Because they have a good reward

for their labour.

For if they fall, one will lift up his companion.

But woe to him who is alone when he falls,

For he has no one to help him up.

Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm;

But how can one be warm alone?

- Ecclesiastes 4:9-11

Sometimes I feel like I've been misunderstood as a person.

Yet I don't see the need to explain myself or to clarify anything at all.

I feel, I do & I say what I want.

Like Dr. Seuss once said:

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”

TGND

Each brand new day,
brings a new breath of life.
The gloominess has gone away,
brighter days have arrived.

It’s never as bad as it seems,
only what I make it to be.
With greater faith and His Loving-kindness,
better days ahead-now I can see.

My Lord, my God,
with you in me, my life is nothing but glee.

TGND

addicted;

Warning: personal rant; may bore you.

I cannot decipher what I’m feeling right now. Turning 21 in a matter of days and honestly I don’t feel the hype. No fancy parties, no pricey gifts. Some say it’s the “coming of age” and others say “freedom”. But I’ve always had freedom so it doesn’t make any difference.

I feel the pressure- the pressure of being an adult. The countless responsibilities and I still feel like I’m not ready. For what- I do not know. I guess as you grow older, people expect more of you; to do more, to know more, to give more, everything-more.

And every birthday, I always want to see a change in myself be it outward or inward. I’m going to be a year older yet I am still so insecure about everything. And I am not displaying the traits I ought to display. I’m so unhappy and disappointed with myself.

Oh Lord…………

Fear imprisons, faith liberates;

fear paralyzes, faith empowers;

fear disheartens, faith encourages;

fear makes useless, faith makes serviceable- and,

most of all, fear puts hopelessness at the heart of life,

while faith rejoices in its God.

Often when we look for answers, we automatically go where the light is better. But sometimes we need to go where it’s dark.

- Daniel Gottlieb's 'Letters to Sam'

This feeling that I’m feeling;
too hard to decipher.

This feeling seems similar
to the one I felt last November.

But just what it is,
I can’t really tell.

All I want is
for it to dispel

Maybe it’s the heart,
that’s giving me a sign.

Maybe it’s telling me,
to move on (yet again)-its time.

TGND

A state of curiosity

A state of peace

A state of uncertainty

A need to be appeased

A state of emptiness

A state of pain

A state of euphoria

What's left to gain?

A state of happiness

A state of tears

A state of entity

Let's bury those fears

A state of confusion

A state of grief

A state of elation

Oh what a relief!

A state of nothing,

TGND

We have troubles around us, but we are not

defeated. We do not know what to do, but

we do not give up the hope of living. We are

persecuted, but God does not leave us. We are

hurt sometimes, but we are not destroyed.

2 Corinthians 4:8-9

The time is comin
It's coming soon
I feel it in my bones, I feel it in my shoes
I was lost, but now I'm found
And all my troubles are turning around

Oh I feel I've been so close to you
Heavens holding my hand
And I'm ready to break on through

So I'm tearing down the walls inside
Letting go of all my pride
Make it home before the lie
I dont need to hide inside this shell
This shell
No more

I dont know my right from left
And I've been going around this bend
So many miles I have roamed

Lately I feel like I'm coming home
Oh I'm getting so close to you
Heavens lighting a candle and I'm ready
To break on through

So I'm tearing down the walls inside letting go
Of all my pride
Make it home before the lie
I dont need to hide inside this shell
This shell no more
No more

Silly as it seems,

I thought things would be fine.

I must admit,

I waited, most of the time.

Often I felt disappointed,

wondering if it's right.

Wondering if it's you,

I should be thinking of at night.

Try as I may,

I thought I can't.

It isn't as easy as it seems;

liking someone.

do you get me?

TGND

~可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流~

TGND

The secret of life is letting go;

the secret of love is letting it show.

The skies are getting dark and the weather is perfect for some Rachael Yamagata.

I can just feel the words stirring in my mind and the music lingering around my head.

Am I not making sense anymore ? *shrugs

After weeks of much complaints, deep thoughts & unhappiness, things are slowly taking a turn.

I know things will get better. How else can it be then?

Failures & pain only come because there's a lesson to be learnt.

Life's not perfect; but it can't be that bad.

toodeloo,

TGND

Something I have to keep in mind. Haven't been the best a person can be recently. But I am trying.

Happiness keeps you sweet.

Trials keep you strong.

Sorrows keep you human.

Failures keep you humble.

Success keeps you Glowing.

But only God keeps you going.

tgnd

waiting for __________

TGND

totally apt.

Since when do you come around
And the temperature has changed
Nothing's the same

Left me in yesterday
You don't see me that way
Touch me that way no more
When did you get so cold
I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standing at the bottom of this mountain that we made
And the ground is shaking from all of our mistakes
But there's no wall nothing but us is in our way
It's a matter of time
We can rewind

If you only knew
What my heart goes through for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche)
Oh, this avalanche
(avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?

We see what's up ahead
Why do we stay, watching us fading?
Trapped in by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in
And it's so cold
I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standing at the bottom of this mountain that we made
And the ground is shaking from all of our mistakes
But there's no wall nothing but us is in our way
It's a matter of time
We can rewind

If you only knew
What my heart must do for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche)
Oh, this avalanche
(avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?

Front is breaking
And it's taking over my spirit
Quickly, quickly
Something's shifted
Have we drifted too far apart now?
If you only knew...

Everytime I'm on the verge of closing my eyes &

thinking that this is all just a dream,

you'd appear, assuring me that it is all real.

That thin line between a dream & what's real;

that's you.

TGND

男人男人

多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真

让我不必再心疼

TGND

我真傻的可以 在你的世界里

困住自己 也毫不犹豫

把理智都忘记 小情话最动听

什么年纪 还傻的可以

TGND

Dear God,

Can you hear me? Millions pray to you, but I know you have the power and ability to hear me.

 

Dear God,

I need you to help me. There are so many things in life that I cannot do right. All I need is for you to help me do one thing that’s right. Will you help me?

 

Dear God,

Thank you for surrounding me with wonderful people all my life. I am tired of always disappointing those around me. Can you help me live up to their expectations? Can you help me live up to my own?

 

Dear God,

Thank you for the wonderful family that I have. My father, like you, never gives up on me when I fail. My mother, the best one can ever have. And my brothers, the best gift I have received. Lord, will you help me make them proud of me? I am tired of failing and I am tired of seeing them disappointed yet trying their best to encourage me.

 

Dear God,

I apologise for the surge of emotions. I listen hard for the answers; I look hard for the light. But I still feel like I’m doing something wrongly because I can’t seem to hear you.

 

Dear God,

 I need you. 

 

All I wanna do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again,

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end. 

TGND

This video is worth every second of your time. 

I hope it would touch  you the way it touched me.

And Tim, if you're reading this, thanks for sharing! (: 

TGND

I'm feeling so blahhhh. 

Maybe it's the gloomy weather, maybe it's just something else.

Let's just leave it at here. Out. 

Love fools; we all are, though we deny

All these strong emotions, all but a lie

Anything that goes straight to the heart,

Makes one weak, breaking one apart

 

I’m such a sucker for affection

BYE,

TGND

see you at the crossroads;

She’s walking up to him so slowly
It’s about time, it’s about time to fly away, but wait
This one is different cause she’s lonely
Fold your wings, you’ll need them more one day

TGND

The Road Not Taken, Robert Frost (1920 )

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

p/s maybe sometimes, to take the road less travelled would mean much more than what it's perceived by the world.

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react

<3 

TGND

Even if these mere moments of euphoria and happiness were temporal,

I'll be more than glad for that. 

TGND

I dont care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here
I don't belong here

TGND

To put up a pretense, even when the heart resists

But where does the laughter elude from?

The issues and problems, no one should know

This world of play pretend, nothing but hollow

TGND

When darkness takes over the light
When there's not much left to live for in life
When the future is all too bleak
& when you feel like, you're nothing but weak

It's easy to fall into the devil's plane
Having thoughts tailored the devil's way
But it's times like that, the one above says
"Have faith in me, I will make a way"


He will make a way; yes he will.

Sometimes ignorance rings true ;

But hope is not in what I know ;

Not in me,

It's in You

<3

TGND

"Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades.
Never-ending, your glory goes beyond all fame. "

Death may seem to be the easiest way out;
But we do not understand that to some, it’s the ONLY way out.
People will mourn once you’re gone,
But in time to come, they’ll probably move on.

Pardon the talk of such morbid thoughts,
At times one just feels too distraught.
Too much pressure from the outside world,
All these thoughts, nothing more but a blur.

If only I could just end it all here.

zzzzzzz

Seeing disappointment in someone's eyes is never easy;

especially so when that person had high hopes of you.

TGND

I had a thought or rather a revolution if you may call it.
I finally understand why it is so easy for some christians to back slide and lose faith in the one above.

When prayers are not answered and people are not given what they have prayed for,
they just lose complete faith. They start doubting God's presence, they blame the one above and they just go back to believing in the ways of the world.

But what they do not realise is that, God, probably has better things in stored for them. Maybe what they have prayed for was not something that was meant for them or could have even brought them harm. But no, that's not what they'll consider. It's so easy to forsake Him and just push the blame to him.

How many actually knows that God will work in his time. & that he has such great plans in stored for us. Why is it so so so so easy to succumb to the ways and thoughts of human nature & the world. Why is it so difficult to keep the faith?

and only one question remains, why.

TGND

I'm in love with everything about this song including the video.

TGND

If there's always room for improvement,
will there then ever be room for contentment?

TGND

And as I was feeling vexed with regards to what the world has to say about Christianity/Christians, He spoke to me saying,

"Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in me" (John 14:1)

People have so many misconceptions on Christianity. But they do not know that Christianity is more than juat a religion. It is about having faith in the one above and knowing that God sent his son to die for us so that we may live a prosperous and eternal life.

" But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8)

"For you know the Grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though He was rich, yet for your sakes He became poor, that you through His poverty might become rich" (2 Corinthians 8:9)

And rich does not represent the material things of the world. But rather having enough to meet our needs and some extra to help and bless others with.

"The need of nothing" (Revelations 4:17)

But then again, having said so much, would people really understand? I guess not, because the world would never understand as they have never experienced the miracles of our Lord. They have not dwelled in His Grace and feel the wonderful-ness of it.

Because when the world forsakes you, Our Lord will never do so. And even if a thousand were to fall at your feet, with the Lord in you, you know that you will never fall.

" If the world hates you, you know that it hated me before it hated you" (John 15:18)
"Therefore, the world does not know us, because it did not know him" (1 John 3:1)

I am who I am today becuase of Him. My Lord, My God, My Everything.
& yes, if you may need to know, I am proud to be a Christian for it has made me a much better person

Setbacks in life, at times we may face
Similarly to that, I’ve had my share
But the roads slowly took a turn
From the darkness I have been spared

Great things started to pour in my life
And I never had to question why
For I know, I have Him in me
In all things, He’ll carry me high

A thousand may fall at my feet
But I will never fall
When the world is in chaos
I’ll stand upright & tall

For every battle I’ve fought, I lost
My strength and effort failed
But every battle fought with Him in me
Victory will entail

He came and suffered, that we may live
He was made poor so that we will be rich
With that we should bask in his everlasting grace
Never in our life would we beseech

His love greater than anything in the world
Be glad that it contains in you
Do acts that would display his love
So that others would know it’s true

This special love that is found in you

<3,

TGND

In my dreams, you were perfect.

TGND